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I have been away

I have been away. For quite some time. When my wise friend reached out to ask if I was ok, i realized how long it had been. And that was 2 months ago.
Truth is, life has not been easy on us this year. Health was not bad but was not strong and we had a few scares.  Nanny was gone and we were left juggling everything  with work put down on our llst. And now that js back up on the list, it has been extremely intense as I seem to remember hinting I was not satisfied in my last performance review. I can't even say I am now over with it, because I am chosing to write the morning after I was the one putting the lights of the trading floor on, as I walked by to leave at 1am. But I know I have to re-start somehow. 
Nothing was wrong this year, but also nothing felt quite right, Life was a struggle but nothing really zi would complain too much about. And i guess until it felt a bit better I did not have the mental ability to write. I felt too distant from everything. 
I am ready to come back, just as I am ready for my Vitamin D, where I have now put all my hopes (though I have not bought yet). I am also ready to stay back and engage more with myself. I even started noting topics I wanted to write about last week. 
The stars are not aligned yet but I am giving you fair warning - be aligned, I want to be back.
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