This class makes my head spin. There is just so much I want to do that I can not juggle it all when I sit in this class. They talk about how to lead and govern successfull non profit enterprises. And I know I should have done this course last semester so that I would have had time to implement the ideas I have during class. Resources, building capacity, measuring your performance, aligning your goals with your strategy. And my head spins... I do charts, I take notes. Totally unrelated with the case but typically arising from it. Do I build a business plan, ask fundraising to build capacity and then hire people. Or should I hire first, and then fundraise? Can I afford to loose 6 months of my attention with so many urgent projects on the ground needing my attention? When will I find someone that can replicate half my passion, my time and my ideas? My mum is strained on Admin stuff, I am in School, the Nuns are over stretched by life in general and claim there are no good people to help them out. How do I get those people, how do I pay them, where do I find them, what should I do? And my head still spins...
I see signs saying we are not afraid. Londoners are tough and endured the bombings of WWII. But those Londoners are hardly the same as the ones here today. Yes people in general are resilient, more than we think we can be when looking outside out. That is anywhere in the world, not just in London. And truth be said there is merit in not letting fear control our lives and terrorism win. Well I just walked into the district line, 5 stations away from Parsons Green and I am afraid. I am not shaking, crying or running away. But I am afraid mostly because it is all so natural. Life must go on I said, as I decided I was not going to cancel my lunch and avoid the tube. But that is what makes it scary. Life goes on and in an effort to not be afraid we recklessly do not change our habits and rely on the stats that more people die on the road then on terrorist attacks. Reality is, the law of probability does not matter because terrorist events are binary. So I think about my frie...
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