I wondered a lot whether this was right. I whether a lot on why I was doing this. And even though I knew I was doing the right thing following one of those crazy instincts I felt the need of following, I still lacked the understanding of why I was getting myself on a flight for 11 hours (or so I thought)
Today I found my first answer, of the many that I am sure are to follow. I am here to re-educate myself to be a normal person. I am here to have a normal job, working with normal people, coming home, doing things other people do, chat, go to the movies, watch tv, if I go crazy I may even read a book.
But it takes time. And I am aware of what Tricia (my flatmate) calls a personality disorder. Today we had our moment to revive why we are not doing 20-hour-day-jobs even though we liked them s much. That is exactly why we are not there. But even out of the bubble, you always have some trouble "going back to normal". I do doubt I will ever be normal, there is actually a pretty clear idea in my mind that I won't. But I am here to do my best at being normal.
Today I found my first answer, of the many that I am sure are to follow. I am here to re-educate myself to be a normal person. I am here to have a normal job, working with normal people, coming home, doing things other people do, chat, go to the movies, watch tv, if I go crazy I may even read a book.
But it takes time. And I am aware of what Tricia (my flatmate) calls a personality disorder. Today we had our moment to revive why we are not doing 20-hour-day-jobs even though we liked them s much. That is exactly why we are not there. But even out of the bubble, you always have some trouble "going back to normal". I do doubt I will ever be normal, there is actually a pretty clear idea in my mind that I won't. But I am here to do my best at being normal.
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