So I am incurable. Really. All that blog post about re-educating myself… pffff not quite there yet… So I was feeling useless. You know how it is, these bloody Harvard people always looking for some appreciation… Hence: I spoke to my boss to make sure I was not being useless. Result: I will get my needed appreciation even more shall I prepare what I thought of preparing in 2 weeks over the next 2 days. Nice. Banker is back. Talk later!
Sometimes I feel too low. . My job by nature involves a lot of rowing against the current, or sometimes just rowing on my own. I have these immesurable drive to get results and some moments in th day, whére I look and evaluate what I have not progressed, it just brings me down. Today I almost cracked. It does not happen often, I must admit. Maybe I should have blogged during the day to help with the venting process. An accumulation of incompetence, unwillingness and also just the absolute amount of work it needs to be done by a single person (me) has made me really question why bother. As B says, it's just money, and it's not mine. I wished I could feel like that today. Maybe i just need to buy those supplements And naturally on top I feel like a bad mother. No matter how I spent the day thinking how I missed C, that wont bring me closer, and what does she care about my thinking. She wants me there. She has struggled with the last weeks, and has become more attac...
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