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Haves and have nots

Last night, a post formed inside my head as I was commuting in Westminster but the crowd did not allow me to balance myself, ipad and writing all at once, which means this will probably end up a totally different thought process.
I have not written in a while, I have not sort out my life, I have not wom the euro millions and I have not gone through the massive back log I have developed at work and at the NGO. I have also not yet accepted well that our volunteers house got robbed in Mozambique, including the external drive with th work they had done the last 2 months. I just thought I would leave that out there as I focus rather on the positives.
What I have done though, even if it does not feel like it, does really outweigh all the have nots. I have come to realize that, as expected, there are good sources of life in the same building and away from my seat as I start questioning that some things are maybe not worth fighting for and you can't always fix what is broken, especially if not everyone sees how it is broken. I have also started collecting evidence on this life opportunities and will hope Easter brings its usual time of renewal with it. I have also started exercising again - ok, only once, but it's a star, especially as I put it on 'paper' here. I have also started going through back log on the NGO, though I admit progress was not excellent - but hey I recruited a new volunteer for a mew fundraising area, so that should count extra right? Oh and I also started packing the bag for my holiday 48 hours in advance, which I found to be a huge achievement and made me sleep much better last night. 
Not bad right?

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