Today I realized how anti-social I am becoming. I dare say more than my Morgan Stanley times. Today, I actually wrote an email to Sam saying I was too tired to come to his birthday but I never had the guts to hit send. Because that is when it hit me... I really like Sam, and I never questioned going to his dinner from the moment I first saw the email and there I was, 8pm, saying I could not come. I am glad something made me change my mind because I had a good time and it was one of those relaxed dinners where you get to chat and actually get to know a bit more about people. I always like that.
I guess I accepted my tiredness in the section retreat since I had no alternative, my body was telling me how truly exhausted I was. But today I had no excuse, I slept 8 hours for the last 3 nights and I am sleepier than ever! Which means that maybe if I go back to my usual 6 hours max things may get back to normal.
It is a real fight I am having right now. On the one hand, I tried so hard while in Mozambique to really get my body used to resting and now here I am complaining that my body wants to rest… Damn bankers!
I see signs saying we are not afraid. Londoners are tough and endured the bombings of WWII. But those Londoners are hardly the same as the ones here today. Yes people in general are resilient, more than we think we can be when looking outside out. That is anywhere in the world, not just in London. And truth be said there is merit in not letting fear control our lives and terrorism win. Well I just walked into the district line, 5 stations away from Parsons Green and I am afraid. I am not shaking, crying or running away. But I am afraid mostly because it is all so natural. Life must go on I said, as I decided I was not going to cancel my lunch and avoid the tube. But that is what makes it scary. Life goes on and in an effort to not be afraid we recklessly do not change our habits and rely on the stats that more people die on the road then on terrorist attacks. Reality is, the law of probability does not matter because terrorist events are binary. So I think about my frie...
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