Running a charity can be challenging. People think lack of funds are your biggest headache and truth is all I miss are hands. I miss hands to help me organize events, hands to help me ask money to corporates, hands to help me ask money to foundations, hands to write proposals, hands to help me think of creative advertising and campaigns, hands and brains that allow me to be less of a bottleneck and more of a CEO. I struggle, everyone knows that and it is hard to chose where to turn. I do have to check the accounts to see where funds need to go, where we still have them and who needs them now. But I also should be networking, reading about the industry, getting educated on all we could do. This week was my first week in tweeter, I did not even know how it worked and how powerful of an awareness tool it was. I should also be thinking of finally getting my hands around social return on investment and establish a framework for us to evaluate all our projects in measurable ways. I did a lot of that in Harvard, even structured a social bond, but now I struggle to find the time. The problem is that so much of it is still in my head, no matter how much I write. So I guess I just need to keep typing...
Sometimes I feel too low. . My job by nature involves a lot of rowing against the current, or sometimes just rowing on my own. I have these immesurable drive to get results and some moments in th day, whére I look and evaluate what I have not progressed, it just brings me down. Today I almost cracked. It does not happen often, I must admit. Maybe I should have blogged during the day to help with the venting process. An accumulation of incompetence, unwillingness and also just the absolute amount of work it needs to be done by a single person (me) has made me really question why bother. As B says, it's just money, and it's not mine. I wished I could feel like that today. Maybe i just need to buy those supplements And naturally on top I feel like a bad mother. No matter how I spent the day thinking how I missed C, that wont bring me closer, and what does she care about my thinking. She wants me there. She has struggled with the last weeks, and has become more attac...
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