It just feels good, no matter what. Spring has more than arrived in Lisbon and even though there are stilk fears of more rain nothing can take the beach away from us. I grew an ability to work and decipher my laptop screen under the radiant sun, even with wrinklea in my eyes. What else was I expexted to do? I had to work and I absolutely had to get rid of my greenish sick colour. So working by the pool revealed itself the best solution. And if life gives you a chance to back in time, do not throw it away. There is nothing like closing the day in Praia Grande, playing rackets and just sitting by the sea with your best friend. As you grow older, life does not give you these chances a lot. We grabbed it, and it felt really good!
Sometimes I feel too low. . My job by nature involves a lot of rowing against the current, or sometimes just rowing on my own. I have these immesurable drive to get results and some moments in th day, whére I look and evaluate what I have not progressed, it just brings me down. Today I almost cracked. It does not happen often, I must admit. Maybe I should have blogged during the day to help with the venting process. An accumulation of incompetence, unwillingness and also just the absolute amount of work it needs to be done by a single person (me) has made me really question why bother. As B says, it's just money, and it's not mine. I wished I could feel like that today. Maybe i just need to buy those supplements And naturally on top I feel like a bad mother. No matter how I spent the day thinking how I missed C, that wont bring me closer, and what does she care about my thinking. She wants me there. She has struggled with the last weeks, and has become more attac...
Comments